Weeknote / Tue 5th May 2026

My first weeknote

I've never written a weeknote before. It's mid-week and not exactly a very wrapped up 'weeknote' time but since most of my days blend into each other and I will probably never have a perfect regular system for it, I don't think it matters so much.

I've not been very impeccable with my word over the past few weeks and this has been eating at me quite a bit, which is a good reminder that honesty is the best policy.

I told a friend that I'd been feeling very depressed and out of it lately (moreso than usual) and they chalked it up to it just being a 'summer moment'. It sounded bit counter-intuitive but I did feel marginally better once it started raining.

I've been talking to therapists after a few years of avoiding therapy. They are all nice sweet people around my age and I wonder if I will benefit from any of it. No harm trying. I have no desire to ace therapy anymore, so this will be interesting.

I am going to travel again soon! To the coast this week and to the mountains in a few more weeks.

I have been taking interviews. I'm confused about what life as a full-time working professional would look like for me again, it's been a while.

I've spent the past 2 days beginning to figure how to make a little project that's been at the back of my mind for a while. A browser based mixtape tool where you can put in youtube links and it'll generate a unique mixtape page for you to share with someone. I grew up making CD mixtapes for my friends and subsequently making playlists on 8tracks which was such a peak music discovery/sharing experience. It's mostly inspired by that and a desire for there to be cute little personal web things to share with my friends. And I felt like it would be a good little project to learn some web dev things from. I started off worrying about the design and look of it but I realised I have so many things to learn and figure about how everything will actually work re: backend stuff + how that links to front end before I even touch design. It's been fun! I read a lot and ask Claude a lot of questions and I'm hoping to make a little project doc of how I went about it, so I've been documenting as I go. I've had so many little 'ohhhh' moments. This is probably very simplistic to many and this whole thing could be made in a few hours if I was purely vibe coding it without any real attempt to learn how any of it works, but I enjoy the slow figuring of it. There are many things that I don't fully understand yet (I'm such a but why, why, why, why person and have to learn where to stop asking and just start moving ahead) but I have full faith that it'll all fall into place into a good little mental framework.

JavaScript makes a little more sense to me. Been working through this.

Been thinking of moving out, weighing pros and cons, have to decide on taking up a house situation soon. My initial plan a few months ago was to move back to Goa but I've lost a bit of the momentum to do so. I'm so easily space-place influenced. Let's see.

I think if I move out, the biggest requirement would be the situation aligning with my desire to have a space to create, a space for others to create, to do so together. The real freedom that comes with having a room of ones own. To sunbathe, ponder, love, read, make music, mope around in, scheme, etc.

I got an AC installed in my room which is kind of wild, never thought I'd see that in my lifetime in Bangalore. And I did 3 years without an AC in Mumbai. Excessive.

Initially, I wanted to get rid of this website and move to a new nice fancy 'proper' website that is more work forward/professional facing. But, but but. I need a messy space on the web that only a few random/known people look at. I don't want my professional context to get muddled with my messy personal randomposting. I've decided that this website will stay the way it is and maybe link out to my 'work' website and that website will not route back here. Semi personal public. Maybe this will not work in practice but I realise I enjoy living in this little home of laguna-dream.github.io. This is a room of ones own. I built it. I don't want to abandon her so soon.

I updated my macOS after close to two years of not doing so, to...what is this, Tahoe? Only so I could run the Cloudflare Workers thing for the mixtape project. I don't really enjoy this goopy liquid design. Hm.

Some things I've been consuming

music
coconut mango
when
aria math but its mixed with all i need
mr blue

not much else honestly